Curled up in the darkest corner I lay
spinning and spinning sticky lies around me
as though to somehow hide the hollow in my chest
where truth was meant to lie... lay... lie...
But over and over I drag these strands
of fake,
false,
untrue,
across myself...
an intricate and complex web of pretense
a dam to suppress those unwanted emotions
and a self-made cage in which i'm imprisoned.
True- I make the best of my lovely blindfolds,
I decorate,
I fabricate,
I gloss, polish, varnish, until the deceitful threads shimmer
and my eye is caught in the glimmer before
my limbs are caught in the web.
And hanging in the dark root of my lies,
trembling,
I count the strands that bind me and find
that with each I make, I must make yet another.
So I weave myself into this terrible trap,
my own prey, my own destroyer,
and enmeshed in trickery to deceive all others,
I see I've only deceived myself.
You know its been awhile since I myself have posted. You know this our 8th month and going? Come to think of it, its been awhile since any of you have posted here! Maybe its my good mood, that Im asking people to start posting here again. But I miss this place. I went back and read my own first post and had a little nostalgia.
Well guys...its fun and id love to keep this going. So hey, POST MORE. I'll be sure to do so too!
A bit of scenery change is in order. If anyone finds a blog they want up, inform me ^_^.
. Group of friends who just can't get enough of each other. ^__^
. July 30, 2003 (Birthdate of Clan)
. Anaheim Hills (yet one moved away to Davis)
. Canyon High School (UCDavis)
